you're the reason why i'm closed

adagio

looking back
i was slow to fall in love
i took my time with it, and settled
what a lovely winter
our last winter
angry and drowsy
the hum of the space heater
footsteps above and snow beyond
he didn't understand the art
and i was just the comfort
the release
the distraction
i was a novelty
the attic was stale smoke
my hands were ink and lead
and on the cure, i never slept
i took it just for him
to be the robot he desired
and reality,
he never could take like a man
i could sense when it was wrong
i was just averse to wasted time

ESC

beer makes me brave
ribbon of highway
could cut it and be free
sharp turn into the guard rail
i imagine
searing burning real
blood bone brain
my body in a billion pieces
blinding red and hot
sharp and loud
smeared like paint between the lines

jules

julian casablancas... if he were a doctor he would be #1 on my list. my best painting yet... created today... took approx four hours, although I wasn't really paying attention... time flies when you're having fun

a boombox is not a toy

sail

i am not a hipster

...but I love the strokes new album!

my beloved doctor...

whilst bumming around, drinking wine in my lab coat and goggles tonight, I began to think about all of the doctors I love and realized that the list has become quite extensive... so here we go... here is a comprehensive and ordered list of my TOP 20 favorite doctors!

#20 DR. DRE

#19 DR. SEUSS


#18 DR. JACK SHEPHARD


#17 DR. KEVORKIAN


#16 DR. DOOM


#15 DR. ROBERTS


#14 DR. PHIL


#13 DR. GREENE


#12 DR. NEIL deGRASSE TYSON


#11 DR. MCDREAMY


#10 DR. STEEL


#9 DR. FORRESTER


#8 DR. DOOGIE HOWSER, M.D.


#7 DR. IAN MALCOLM


#6 DR. DREW


#5 DR. BEVERLY CRUSHER


#4 DR. MICHIO KAKU


#3 DR. INDIANA JONES


#2 DR. HORRIBLE


#1 DR. WHO (THE TENTH DOCTOR)

fit and tidy

this blog will basically be vague and cryptic sentences regarding my feelings and personal life,
as well as cool as shit pix, videos, links and my opinions on current conspiracy theories
so stay tuned
this is a new frontier

other than that, sad day today, will miss the good times can't wait for more
world hasn't ended, time to start planning for the future

want to thank him for everything
i finally feel normal again
should be illegal
girlfriends over at four for tea w/milk and small slices of cake and delightfully deep conversations

five dogs and a cat
pool but no swimming

gaining popularity on the forums

touching farewells on a beautiful day and promises for the future

great golf swing/nature

peaceful at last?






nah...





coming up... apocalyptic dreams - hidden meanings or prophecy?